Yeah I'm not so good at this.

This whole blogging thing just might not be for me or something because I just forget to write something for only a few months. Not if anyone really cares, but I'm just watching Water for Elephants for the first time. And I'm not saying I cried or anything, but this movie just tells me why I love elephants so much. They are just portrayed in that fun loving care free way. They are playful. One of the largest land animals and they are portrayed as child like. And I hate abusive people. Though it doesn't have to be physical. I just want to know what people are thinking sometimes just to see if they really have it as bad as they think. The truth is I am probably one of the worst offenders of people who think their life sucks, but doesn't realize there are people who have it far worst. I constantly think I have it bad because I am surrounded by people who get whatever. An only child gets whatever they want. They get it all and they feel they can just fucking say whatever the fuck they want. But no. You can't go fucking saying your opinion on something that doesn't even fucking involve you. It my family, and on the side that you have no a part of. So fuck it, because you ruined my Christmas. Not that I enjoy that holiday anyway. It is always about who got the most and best fucking presents. Holiday of giving? Bull shit (personal life rant).

It's Friday!

Yeah so in the great words of Rebecca Black, you know 'great words,' it's Friday! Partying' yeah! Back to business. Today, how was today. Well it was just like any other day. Torture! And I mean it. Well I might be over exaggerating a little, but honestly, it was full of people who annoy me. Now, I know you like like me either, but you are dumb. And she isn't a jerk for calling you dumb, even though she technically didn't call you dumb. Which proves the point. And I'm sorry Soddy no one wants to hear you talk, and I don't care that you are a cheerleader. Our cheerleaders suck still, and even more, with you on the team. And you're face is not your money maker because you are fugly. It is one thing to be a sarcastic dumb fuck when you are semi-attractive,it's another thing if you are really ugly and shaped like Mr. Cannon. Who is shaped like a pair people! And he is a creep. Maybe if you were smarter I could see you becoming a creepy math teacher, but I feel you will become a hobo! And don't get me started on the sophomores. I mean if I don't like you I will tell you. Yeah it might sound bitchy, but no one cares if you beat Steve by one percent, and no one cars if it is fucking pasta Tuesday, well I guess everyone does care... But I mean it is just fucking pasta people. And school pasta which means it isn't even that good. Yet on Tuesday everyone is just running down to lunch to get such a good spot in line. If I could go through that line I would just budge like I do every fucking day. What is wrong with high school kids. I just want to say (1)it's fucking high school grow up (2)no one really wants to hear what you did over the weekend in the middle of the class, everyone is just too self centered for that, plus it is annoying. (3)just because someone is smart does not mean they never get things wrong (4)why are dicks so funny and we just have to draw them on everything? Dumbasses (5)just fucking grow up already!

Well... This is Awkward

Yeah so in the words of one of my friends today did not have any potential. That whole thing that if you have a bad day yesterday you should have a good day today. Such a lie. I had a terrible day yesterday since I forgot I had to work and didn't show up. Plus I had to deal with little kids, and the only reason I put up with those annoying kids is because BBBS looks good on my college application and I need NHS hours. Otherwise I would not be doing that. Anyway, today did not have potential from the moment I woke up, which was reflected in how I dressed. Sweatpants and slipper boots with a loose sweater. Still, I have once again procrastinated and have not started my write for physics, my APUSH self evaluation, or reading that handout. Plus I have to write a paper on someone in my class in Spanish. There is just so much to do and I am just way too lazy. All I want to do is sleep. I really need Saturday to get here. Films with my two friends and a really cute boy, hopefully, and then some anime movies. Well, then I get two work Sunday.. At least sophomores have WKCE testing next week... Which means I get to sleep in. I just need someone to grab me aside and say 'hey, let's go have some fun' I mean, I'm not talking sex fun, of course not, but I could use some cute boy cuddling action.... God, why can't guys look at me in that light. The only one who ever really has used to be my friend, wasn't my friend, to be my friend again, then wanting a relationship, to not being my friend and now calling me a fucking tease. Yeah, well I would like to say I was pretty frank with you. I don't want a relationship. Well, not with him. I mean that is my best friend, you can't just be saying such douche comments about her. Jackass. Well I was going to go after your best friend to make you angry, but it turns out you two are in a fight. So maybe he will want to make you angry too! Fingers crossed

Well This is New

Okay, so I bet almost no one will read this, but who cares. I have always wanted to have a blog. Just some place I can write everything I am thinking and not be judged. If you don't like the way it is, I really don't care, at all. This is just about me. What I feel. Bet that sounds selfish, but it is the way I see it. Though "Living in Hell" might be fun for moat, I hate it. When I can leave, I am getting as far away from this place as possible. Sure, I'll miss my friends and family, but I just want to live. There is so much to do, and so much I want to do. I feel like I have wasted the first 18 years of my life! That is terrible....and it sucks. At least I am old enough to gamble all my money away....